2009-07-28 - 10:49 a.m.
i'm just stopping by here because i'm at workand i feel like screaming and i haveto calm down and i need an outlet of some kind. i just feel so angry and irritable lately, i get upset over the smallest things, and i'm teaching a high school class with a few other people and i can't start yelling at people. i really don't want to be here right now i hate being around other people so much sometimes i just can't take it and yet i have to pretend that i'm perfectly fine and that i'm not bothered by everything that everyone else does. i constantly feel like everyone hates me or just can't stand me. i feell like evefyone is so fucking mean even when they're nice. i just can't take this i don't want to be here even though it's the easiest and best fucking job i've ever had. i just feel like i'm worthless in the eyes of everyone around me and i just want to be alone and not have to think about this or feel thisway.
i should get back. i honestly don't know how i'm goinh to get through the rest of the day.