2003-07-20 - 5:39 AM
okat what was i going to say again? i hate thinking of things to say on this thing then forgetting them whe i finally get to the computer, or even if i don't forget what i was going to say it just doesn't sound as good the second time through.
I met Dan today. He is super cool, TOTALLY not what i expected.
anyways...clean up and all that. Seriously i keep meeting people into shit and they are way more into it than me and it makes me feel better about myself and my use or whatever. But it doesn't make me feel more like i'm ok, i'm still aware of what i don't want to become. The best thing for me will be going back to davis where i'm tempted by the things that are really good for me and not just the things that are fun/self-destructive.
I HELLA got a tan today!!! A week in cancun and nothing (cuz of my spf30 sunblock) but i sit around at the park with no shirt on for a while and BOOM! i just looked at myself and i can't believe i tanned so well. i'm not relaly sure how it happened actually, but whatever.
off i go..