2002-03-26 - 2:54 p.m.
oh no!!! Ashley just called and asked to hang out. I was afraid she was starting to like me. Now it seems pretty certain.... well MAYBE she doesn't, but usually you dont' like spend some time with someone and then call them right after school the next day to hang out unless you really like them, awww i REALLY don't want to have to deal with this. I like this girl a lot too but there is no way i am getting involved with another high school girl, and there's no way i'm getting involved with ANYONE for a long time anyways, i've been through too much lately, and i need a lot of time to recover and be less clingy of a person. Well, at least SHE'S the one calling me and i'm not all clingy to her, it's kind of relieving to be on the other end for once, but at the same time very scary because i dont' want anything bad to happen. I am not sure what to do... i don't know if today i should just say something....i just don't know. Maybe she doesn't want anything serious, she is just needing to be with someone, like i have been, and knows that i'm in the same place right now. I really hope this doesnt' turn into something painful for either of us. I don't think it would for me, especailly since i am not going to let myself get serious with anyone, but i might hurt her and i SO don't want to do that.
it will all be okay. "it's all gay"